by Felice Stevens
Release Date: May 2, 2016
After ten years away from home, bad boy caterer Gideon Marks has a lot to prove. Getting the holiday catering job at his childhood synagogue is the first step in demonstrating to everyone he didn’t turn out to be the failure they predicted. What he doesn’t count on is Rabbi Jonah Fine, his high school nemesis and secret crush, stirring up old feelings Gideon thought long gone and secrets he’s buried deep for years.
An unexpectedly passionate encounter shocks Gideon, but he pushes Jonah away, convinced he isn’t good enough to be in a relationship and would never be accepted by Jonah’s father. But Jonah hangs tough—he won’t allow Gideon to hide or run away from life again. And when it comes to love, Gideon learns the most important lessons aren’t always taught in school.
When I noticed that the blurb mentioned one of the hero is a rabbi, I get all excited thinking is the same as priesthood. You can imagine how pervy I am and how much I love taboo. Ahem. Anyway, having an openly gay rabbi is great too.
Hot chef, Gideon Marks is back at his hometown to make a show of his success, especially to Jonah, his childhood crush who used to look down on him. Why did the blurb said Gideon is a bad boy? I can't actually detect anybad vibe from him. Mostly he is too adorable and sweetly vulnerable. And his cooking skill, cue FOODgasm, omg!
Jonah Fine, is now a rabbi and on the verge of taking over the synagogue from his dad when Gideon came back into his life. He miss Gideon too much and didn't waste any time to show his intention.
"No matter what I would've ended up doing with my life, Gideon, finding you was always part of my plan."
Okay, the first sexual encounter totally took me off guard because I had no idea Jonah is so efficient in claiming his man. Yowza! I wish I know more about their history during their childhood, maybe a little flashback would be great. Initially I don't understand why Gideon had so much hang up about his past and why he keep alluding that Jonah was a condescending jerk.
The Jonah we know here is a totally fine piece of specimen. The kind and caring boyfriend that everyone wish for. I like how he is always there for Gideon no matter how often Gideon pushed him away or lashing out childishly.
"I look at myself, and I see nothing."
"That's funny. Because when I look at you, I see everything."
The best part of the story is we get to see them being together as a functioning couple for a large part of the story. Both Gideon and Jonah have some issue to deal with, Gideon finding himself lacking since he was a child and had been living with some anger issue towards people in general, and Jonah is also under pressure to step out from under his father's shadow. We get to see how they support each other emotionally and physically. As usual, Felice Stevens story make me into a total sap. When the story end, all I can express is. Le sigh.
"If you'd never found your way back into the light, I would have sat with you in that darkness."
“How did you know where to find me?”
“I didn’t. But when I went to your apartment and discovered you weren’t home, I thought to myself, ‘Where would a chef be early on Saturday morning?’”
Pleased he’d thought so carefully about me, I bit my lip to keep from smiling, then muttered with my head down, “Lucky guess on your part.”
“I’d like to think so,” said Jonah, his voice as soft as the breeze. My eyes met his, the hurt from our last conversation shimmering bright in their depths, causing a throb within me of a longing I’d never known existed. “Or maybe it was fate.”
He smiled then plucked the paper bag of rugelach out of my clutches, rummaged through it until he found an apricot one, and bit off half.
“Well, if you’re that hungry, I guess you can come home with me, and I’ll make you an omelet,” I grumbled but couldn’t stop the small grin tugging at my lips. “But I planned on browsing a bit more through the market first.”
“I’d like that.” Jonah walked beside me, and we meandered past the stands piled high with colorful peppers and squash. We strolled in silence, but every few steps I’d sneak a glance at him, expecting Jonah to speak. Instead he remained irritatingly, cheerfully silent.
I sampled some hot mulled cider and licked my lips. Spending so much time with Jonah gave me new insight. I’d always thought him superior and judgmental; perhaps I had been wrong in my assessment. He captivated me with the humor in his speech, warmth in his smile, and that unmistakable flare of desire in his eyes. Goddamn it, I wanted him.
I extended the paper cup. “Do you want a sip?” Its heady cinnamon scent remained one of my most favorite things about the fall season. To my shock, instead of answering me, he bent down and kissed me on my lips, lapping at their sticky sweetness. He stepped back, but I put a restraining hand on his wrist.
“What’s going on? Why are you really here?”
The honesty in Jonah’s face took my breath away.
“Do you really have to ask, after the last time?”
My body refused to listen to the war inside my head, kindling a deep need I couldn’t understand. I took a step forward, but unlike me, Jonah didn’t retreat. He stood firm, and I stood close enough to almost touch. Close enough to smell him.
“I’m not who you want; can’t you see that?”
“You don’t have any idea what I see when I look at you, Gideon.”
I wanted to yell back at him, No, you have no idea who I am, but I couldn’t bring myself to ruin the moment. I had no clue who Jonah thought I was, but I wanted to be that man if only to be able to have him always look at me like this. Like I was special. Like I was his. The sun beat hot upon my shoulders, and I held his gaze while contentment poured over me like a warm summer rain.
I have always been a romantic at heart. I believe that while life is tough, there is always a happy ending around the corner. My character have to work for it, however. Like life in NYC, nothing comes easy and that includes love.
I live in New York City with my husband and two children. My day begins with a lot of caffeine and ends with a glass or two of red wine. I practice law but daydream of a time when I can sit by a beach somewhere and write beautiful stories of men falling in love. Although there is bound to be a little angst along the way, a Happily Ever After is always guaranteed.