Monday, February 1, 2016

Review: In the Absence of Light by Adrienne Wilder

In the Absence of Light 
by Adrienne Wilder
Genre: M/M
Publication Date: 3 April 2015

For years Grant Kessler has smuggled goods from one end of the world to the next. When business turns in a direction Grant isn’t willing to follow he decides to retire and by all appearances he settles down in a nowhere town called Durstrand. But his real plan is to wait a few years and let the FBI lose interest, then move on to the distant coastal life he’s always dreamed of.

Severely autistic, Morgan cannot look people in the eye, tell left from right, and has uncontrolled tics. Yet he’s beaten every obstacle life has thrown his way. And when Grant Kessler moves into town Morgan isn’t a bit shy in letting the man know how much he wants him.

While the attraction is mutual, Grant pushes Morgan away. Like the rest of the world he can’t see past Morgan’s odd behaviors.

Then Morgan shows Grant how light lets you see but it also leaves you blind. And once Grant opens his eyes, he loses his heart to the beautiful enigma of a man who changes the course of his life.

(5 stars)

Sometimes you came across a special book that touch your heart and is hard to describe why you just love it so much. Despite the slow moving plot from the POV of a man who is running away from his past, In the Absence of Light is one thought provoking read that make me ponder all day long. 

"The light is a funny thing, Grant. We think it shows us what we need to see, but in reality, it blinds us."

Grant Kessler is a man looking for a fresh start from his shady past. He longed for a solitude at a virgin beach, but first he had to evade the authorities by laying low at small town Durstrand, a place where the local rancher put up a theater for his cows. 

Morgan is a local, working as a busboy at the local bar. One look at Morgan, people assume he is not normal. He had the constant tic that just make people wary of him. But if one took the chance to get to know him, they will find themselves in the company of a remarkable and wise man who beat all the odds against him in life.

"Pain, fear, humiliation, it turned his beautiful dark eyes into a window of hell. It was the first glimpse I’d had of the prison he lived in. A captive to the uncontrollable tics ravaging his body. I think it was then I understood the solace he found in the light."

This story depicted Grant's escapism from his harsh reality, but instead he found love and solace in the arm of the most unlikely man. Loving Morgan make him realize, he himself is the lesser man, the jaded man with tainted soul.

With the constant hounding of his ex-lover and the FBI pressuring on him, will Grant lose grasp with his life in Durstrand? At what cost will it take for him to finally find the peace he sought? 

"You can trust me, Grant. You don't have to run. You don't have to hide."

Everything built up to quite a suspense in the last quarter will Grant finally has to face his past head on and settle the dispute once and for all. I have to say this a very well written and touching M/M book I've ever read, not that I claimed to read a lot of them. The ending seems to open up a possibility for the secondary characters and my interest was definitely piqued. I'm glad I took the time and patience to savor this book.

"I'm not cold, at least, not on the outside."
"The inside cold is always worse because you can put a coat on to stay warm, but there isn't much you can do for your heart."