Friday, August 28, 2015

ARC Review: Worth It by Linda Kage

I fell in love once.

It was amazing. She was amazing. Life was amazing.

I lived for each time I could see her, and nothing else mattered, not that our families were enemies, our time together was forbidden, or we had to meet in secret.

Our love could conquer all.

Until it didn't.

So I was ripped away from the love of my life and shoved into hell, forced to continue without her.

It shattered me, broke the best parts of me, left me permanently damaged.

Or so I thought.

Years later, I swear history’s trying to repeat itself because she’s back in my life, and I’m just as drawn to her as I was before. But I'm older and wiser now, and I know she should stay away from a worthless ex-con like me.

So, I will not let her in. I absolutely refuse to hurt her. I will keep her away.

Then again, sometimes risking your greatest fear to get to a smile makes everything worth it, and besides, I’m not sure I can resist her, anyway.

This is the story of how Felicity Bainbridge changed my life forever, starting one summer day long ago after I was forced to change a dirty diaper...

--Knox Parker

(3 stars)

I can't bring myself to rate this higher despite all the feelings the author invoked in me. I can't find fault in the writing or deny my emotional engagement with the story. But I also can't use the word enjoy to describe my reading experience because I feel more depressed/sad/angry than happy.

The story was told in alternate chapters of THEN and NOW

In THEN, we witnessed the blossoming love between the rich, Felicity Bainbridge and white trash, Knox Parker. They are the star-crossed lovers with their families hating each other. Witnessing their sweet young love should be an enjoyable experience. But due the the hint of something awful happened that torn them apart, the waiting for the inevitable is pure torture for me. I keep hoping we can get it over it and move on already. 

"You're ... a Parker."
And just like that, we were enemies.

In NOW, Knox had just came out of prison. He had no family, no friends and nowhere to go. However, a chance encounter led him to the Forbidden men and with the help from Pick, Knox had a place to stay and a new job. The last thing he expect was to have the love of his life, Felicity to be his new colleague and housemate. 

I love a good tortured hero and Knox's story is hitting all the right buttons for me. The poor guy was just a boy in love and he got punished for it. Don't let me start with the cruelty he endured in prison. It was so goddamn awful. But what I'm not comfortable with is how is was describe in detailed by a third party to Felicity. It just doesn't seems normal friends etiquette to tell your friends such graphic thing.

"No matter what either of us want, I'm never going to be that innocent boy you fell in love with."

"I think the worth of a person comes from who you are and less from what you are."

I find that the happiness towards the end is too short lived and not well balance with the emotional tortured I endured. I need more time spend on Knox's emotional recovery, seeing him heal with Felicity and basically see them having a functional relationship together. To me the ending wrapped up too fast with so much happening in the last quarter.