Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Review: Charade ( Games #1 ) by Nyrae Dawn

Charade by Nyrae Dawn

Nineteen-year-old Cheyenne tries to portray the perfect life to mask the memories of her past. Walking in on her boyfriend with another woman her freshman year in college threatens that picture of perfection. 

Twenty-one-year-old Colt never wanted college and never expected to amount to anything, but when his mom's dying wish is for him to get his degree, he has no choice but to pretend it's what he wants too. 

Cheyenne needs a fake boyfriend to get back at her ex and Colt needs cash to take care of his mom, so they strike a deal that helps them both. But what if Cheyenne’s past isn’t what she thought? Soon they’re trading one charade for another—losing themselves in each other to forget about their pain. The more they play their game, the more it becomes the only thing they have that feels real.

Both Cheyenne and Colt know life is never easy, but neither of them expect the tragedy that threatens to end their charade and rip them apart forever.




5 "Prepare some Kleenex' stars 

The happy cover was really misleading, although it was an actual scene in the book. I thought I'm in for some fun time but I ended up in a sobbing pile of mess. Yet another book that make me cried so hard. This was such a heavy read and most of the time it was full of sadness and tattered soul, but the journey was beautiful nonetheless. And when it came the epilogue, you knew everything was worth it.

"Don't cry, Princess. You know what they say. You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you meet your prince."

No shit, I have to use up a box of tissue to get my HEA. 

Charade - an absurd pretense intended to create a pleasant or respectable appearance.

Who are any of us, really? Do we ever really know someone else? Hell, do we even know ourselves?

It began with Cheyenne, a college freshman who caught her boyfriend, Gregory aka The Douche, cheating on her and the douche still had the nerve to say he only loves her and no one else. Cheyenne didn't started off as a likable heroine to me because she simply put too much importance on how people thought of her. Just because she felt humiliated that she got dump, although her reason behind ran deeper than that, she decided to pay Colt to be her fake boyfriend. 

Colt was a tattooed, messy-haired guy who wears faded jeans and t-shirts. He was a messed up weed dealer who was pissed of the world at large due to him having to deal with a dying mother. There was so much angst in him and I wonder when will this ticking bomb blow up in epic proportion. 

I feel like nothing. I don't know who I am or what I want, but I keep pushing through with my shitty ass attitude while my dying mom hopes for more for me.

When Cheyenne make her proposition to Colt, he thought she was a crazy chick and tried to steer away from her unnecessary drama. But when he saw how she was treated by her douche ex-boyfriend, he can't stop himself from stepping up to help her. 

Part of the time I felt this book was too heavy for my poor soul. We have Cheyenne who was dealing with her panic attack due to her unfortunately childhood experience and her sense of unworthiness cause by being abandon by her mom. Then we have Colt who was dealing with his mom who was suffering from cancer and withering as days went by. Every scene with his mom made me cried a bucket of tears.

Cheyenne and Colt leans on each other to get by their problems. They were willing to serve as each other distraction and what they were having seems to work out for them. When they were together as some kind of fling, all I'm feeling was 'what a messed up situation'. They both just want to forget, but it didn't mean it was right.

I've been really good at keeping him at arm's length so far. We're nothing alike. I think he hates me half the time and we don't belong together. We're a means to an end.

When they finally opened up their eyes to see what was right in front of them, I wanted to yell 'about time!'. Despite Colt hardass attitude, he was such a caring person to his mom and Cheyenne. He was always there to pick up the pieces when she was having a meltdown. Cheyenne also turned out to be such a strong heroine as she stood by his side when things got tough.

This is a game. Our game. One that I asked for, but with each day it feels more real. More real than anything ever has.

"I'm tired of running. I want one thing that's not broken... that's not fucked up or dying."

Seeing Colt's mom, Bev just broke my heart. We have a loving mother who want to world for her son. Their love was simply beautiful. This was such a heavy NA read, but the ending we had worth every tears I shed. I will definitely pick up the next book with Adrian's story. The loyal friend of Colt who loves party and smoking pot more than anything. 

"You can do anything in the world. I've always known that. Don't forget it. - Bev"

Rating 5/5